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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

9:20 PM

not all endings are happily ever after. at least not for rgtt cdiv. and so we lost to cedar again. 3 :1. i'm not depressed, not disapointed. juz feeling very empty. the moment cedar girls start cheering like mad, i feel as though someone had scrapped off everything inside me, leaving me juz an empty shell and a pool of tears. this is the first time ever i actually cried on court, watching my team, the supporters and ripb and ritt, i juz want to cry everything out. the bitterness , the sadness and the madness. the enthusiasm that was still there moments ago dissapeared. i know we shouldn't look back at our failure and start blaming ourselves and everyone, but i really can't. i think, this feeling will be etched deeply into my memory. now, all i hope and want is for rgtt bdiv to thrash sss bdiv, so at least they can get champs and be happy, and give us a reason to be happy also. go rgtt bdiv ! you can do it. we believe in you. juz do your best . as wat valerie says, we may lose the champ title, but we will never lose the rgtt spirit. :) ok, i'm more or less cheered up now.
ok, i shall be really nice and congrat ritt cdiv on winning cat high in the finals . :) at least you guys get champs for cdiv right ? work hard next year, and hopefully ritt bdiv can thrash maris and sji next year. :) well done guys. oh ya, one point to note, ripb's cmu are really really synchro ok ? they rock at cheering. :) you guys should help us cheer at our bdiv match ! :)

the world is collapsing around me and i have totally no idea how to fix it, i can only look around hopelessly and stare. i'm such a useless idiot..

lilin cried her heart out.

! you dont know the real me.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

5:48 PM

i feel seriously depressed now. you know why ?? i was looking at my photo album yesterday and i saw the photo of me and a really good friend. but too bad he is now still at canada.( ruo ling and stephy, if you are reading this post, you'll know who i am talking about.) he is really nice, always so nice and sweet to me.i really like him, but e sad thing is that i've lost contact with him now i don't even know how he is, and to think of the very happy times we once had together, i can't help feeling a lttle sad. ok... shall not be so depressed now and think of happy things instead. :)
rgtt c and b div both got into finals !!! :) that's what i'm really happy. we so near yet so far from double champs. we've overcome all our difficulties and succeeded. we show real and true sportsmanship. you know what ? RGTT, we're the team to beat ! :) ok, bio is really cool. :) with ms yeo around, how could it not be cool ! :)
shall end this post with a quote from our speech and drama teacher, Mr Steve Hogan. " be bad, stay firm. don't be too nice. people won't remember you if you are too sweet and nice. walk down a street and be bad, people will definitely remember you for who you are. " :) well, maybe it's about time i show my naughty side huh ?? :) but i shall still be sweet and nice and bad. possible ? nothing's impossible.

the glammy and pinky one,
lin :) *winkz*

! you dont know the real me.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

6:45 AM

today is the last quater-finals for nationals...and yes WE GOT IN !!!! :) three cheers for rgtt ! come on, let's cheer abourid. :) ya, we had a tough fight with cedar for c'div and we won them ! so cool, we got our sweet revenge at last. but our darling b'div seniors lost to sports school 3:2 , and because of us, nanyang b'div got kicked out. I feel so bad, it's like our fault that they got kicked out , but anyway, we still put up a good fight and had LOADS of fun havign this informal cheering comp with sports school during jing jing's match . we were doing "say ra" and they were screaming and trying to drown our cheer out, so we ended up screaming and shrieking. :) which was super funny ! so all the more you should come and support rgtt for our finals ( if we get in ), and hopefully we can get doubles champs for the third year ! :))
ok, com studs lesson was super fun , we were off filming the rapping scene. a scene where i'm walking down the stairs and doing seductive movements. guess wat ? i got 3 NGs. :) and guess wat ? i had to where a red polka dotted tie , unbutton all my buttons and show my black sports bra and wear this super duper short short. omg, i dread the actual rapping scene.
argh ! i hate my bloody sore throat. so pain ! and it's still red and swollen . why!!! chloe and yihui should stop me from eating that much fried food last friday. ( fried mars bars, XXL chicken from shilin, yakun toast bread and lots of softdrink.)
ok, shall stop now and go to sleep , it's such a long and tiring day. i promise to post again this friday , so seeya ! loves.

! you dont know the real me.